September 18th, 2007 (02:22 am)
current mood: cynical
current song: Shipoopi- The Music Man
Oh I have a few. For instance, getting drunk and in the absence of a boy to drunk dial, thinking it's appropriate to post a dramatic entry instead. I apologize for that, but I'm keeping it up just the same. I think it adequately describes my patheticness.... Of course I know there's not actually anything wrong with being single. Blah blah blah.
Another bad habit I've developed: not going to my Tuesday and Thursday morning class. Not good. I haven't been in sooooooo long. I have a quiz in my recitation tomorrow, and I have absolutely no idea what it's on..... Oh well. Maybe I'll read a little before hand? Maybe?
I feel like I can be more honest than ever in here, because I think I'm literally the last person in the world to use livejournal. Wait...Megann uses it too. Her and I are kickass. Not to digress from the point I was just about to make, but I'm so so so so so so so happy to hear that she's going to be coming back a semester early!!! AND on top of that, moving in with me *hopefully*. I cannnnnnot wait. So far this year I've burst into tears countless times, and usually over the mention of her, or a visit to a place we used to frequent. I'm an emotional mess. But back to the original idea....I can be more blunt now. I'm bored. I won't use any names, but it's becoming increasingly difficult to do what's right...ie, not make out with the guy I'm trying to convince to stop liking me. That would be a definite setback to the plan, but alas there's no one else vying for my attention. Sometimes I think there is, another certain someone, but ughhhhh. Only when we're drinking does he show me any attention, and sorry but after my last relationship fiasco, I plan on staying as freaking far away from that behavior as I can. So since my options are limited....the 1st mentioned certain someone isn't looking too terribly bad...or hasn't been the last few days. Tonight my better judgment won, but I don't know how long I can ward off my intrinsic behavior. Sigh.
What a hard life I lead haha. I sound so terribly dramatic again....I can't help it though. I am bored. I feel as though I'm entering a very well-known phase in my life, where a certain someone from long ago haunts my resolve. So many certain someones in this one, but there's always one very particular "one". In my life I've found that some things can never be completely dead and buried. The depressing aspect of this is that it's always one-sided....entirely one-sided.
I miss updating all the time and allowing the livejournal universe complete access into my daily life. One other thing I haven't done lately is go into the archive and see "what I was doing on this day 2 years ago." So much fun.
Choppy yes, but it's 2:30 am and that's how I roll. In other news - I got a job finally! I've been in dire need of one, and although I don't know exactly when I get to start, I'm now employed at Bath and Body Works. I'm afraid it won't be as rewarding as Clifton Truck, but it's something to pay the bills up here now. Another positive factor is the employee discount....and even better still, is that after 90 days I get to use it at Victoria's Secret. Hehe.
I'm going to go to bed now...finally....but please dear readers, pleaseeeee wish me luck in keeping my resolve strong, in ALL aspects of my life. Of course by that I mean in regards to all the many certain someones I have. There are too many.
The only thing that stands from the last post is that I still hate guys.